It’s been a fantastic journey making “Both Ways” these past couple of years, and I’m very proud of my work.  I’m looking forward to all of you rockstars hearing and enjoying it.

My songwriting has been focused on this specific project — building a bridge between the gay, bisexual, and lesbian communities.  I’ve bared all in my lyrics, many of the songs completely true.  

But now I find myself completely stuck.  I picked up a guitar today for the first time in…well…a long friggin’ time.  I couldn’t play.  No chords came out; no melodies found themselves.  I wrote a bit, but I couldn’t stand what came out.  I hated it, actually. 

I’m lost without the focus behind “Both Ways”.  But perhaps I was hiding behind that focus.  I didn’t allow myself to write outside of that *box*.  Now I’m left to write, well, whatever the f*&k I want.  I don’t know if the songwriter in me is ready to do that just yet.  I also don’t know if she knows how to play live instruments anymore.  I bought a tambourine and a shaker, along with Record for Reason Users (bad analog/digital combo).  I absolutely LOVE Record/Reason.  But it’s a strange affair between live mics and patterns on Dr. Rex.  

I need time.  I need space.  But the *real* stuff running through my head needs lyrics…needs rhyme…needs rhythm.  This is like eating frozen oysters — you just swallow them whole, trying not to taste them or feel the texture as they slide down your throat.  ”Both Ways” is done.  But I’m not.

xoxo Suse.